fell asleep all through class today

Everything my teacher was saying was mixing in with my quick-nap dreams, which was crazy since it was my philosophy class. He was saying how Hitler might have been really different if 'they' had let him into art school and my immediate response (that I said in my head) was "Well, the application process is really difficult and can take a toll on anyone".

roids

It was my birthday and we were going to have a party for me. My mom was getting the party ready, it was like a little kid party... just a long table with folding chairs with a plastic table cloth over it and balloons tied to things. That was the extent of the party. I was getting really excited, but then I found out that my dad was taking steroids. I was so sad! I just went to a log cabin I had and sat while it was raining on me. Then my friend Shay came in, with her boyfriend who was in his 30s, which sketched me out because he was so much older than her. I was really scared that he was going to kidnap her because they were planning on taking a trip together. I was also really sad that she was leaving, because then she couldn't come to my birthday party. Then I remembered, oh man it is my birthday party right now! I am late. But hopefully just fashionably late. So I went to the party, and I was 2 hours late. But I realized also that it was only 11am, meaning the party started at 9am. And I thought, Mom, isn't that a little early to start the party? Everyone was mad at me for arriving so late, they though I was selfish and uncaring. But I was still really sad about my dad taking steroids, and they just didn't understand that.

the in-betweenses

Today after I got home from work I decided to take a nap on my couch. So many things happened to me in that time between when I was laying on my couch and when I was asleep. I kept thinking that I was doing all these things with my arms, like planting flowers and scratching my butt and all of this stuff, and then while I was thinking about how I was doing these activities I was also realizing that my arms were just at my sides and not moving. But still, at the same time, I was doing these activities.

It was crazy.

this is so stupid

I'm pretty sure that last night, I had a dream about a blog entry I made that went on like, forever, about nothing. I'm going to stop talking about this dream because it's so stupid.

But also actually there were some cool parts. Like where we found these bird bones and put them together and they formed this really, really old prehistoric bird and I had to figure out a way to make the bird become alive again. And my mom was moving to Tampa, FL to be closer to me because I went to school in Orlando for some reason.

I was in nickel creek

So I went to this place where Nickel Creek was having a show. And I was talking to Chris Thile and I was like hey I have some instruments with me if you want me to play and he was like yes play with us! So I did. So we were playing on the stage, and it was basically just Chris Thile even though we called ourselves Nickel Creek, and we played a song and it was very good, and then I went to go find another instrument because the strings on my violin slipped and I couldn't get them to go back in tune. By the time we got me an instrument the people running the show told us we were done playing because our time was up.

So then me and Chris Thile are hanging out and he is telling me that he is in love with me and that we need to run away. And I was just like, what the heck. And then he was like no, we need to go now, just remind me what your name is again? And I was like, wait, you don't even know my name? And he was like no I'm sorry I'm so sorry I don't and I was just like it's Kallie... and you're insane.

So then Chris Thile like, went somewhere else and I started talking to the other bands playing at the show, and they were saying that Chris Thile wanted to be exactly like the singer from Sonic Youth, who's most famous song was called Pinhead (not true IRL). Anyways, in my dream the singer from SY was really insane and killed himself, so I knew that Chris Thile wanted to go kill himself. So I had to stop him from doing it because, what would the world be without Chris Thile?

Then I ran to some bank because I needed an accountant or something, who even knows what happened in the next part. So I forget some stuff.

I remember vividly one part where I was sitting on a bed with my room mate and she was sleeping, and I put her hair into a bun and fastened it with bobby pins and it looked so great.

train

We all were going to a party and had to take a train to get there. It was all of my friends from high school and Pat. We got to this party and I went to the bathroom to watch my hands, and when I was done I saw this girl I went to high school with but wasn't friends with but we still said "Hi! How have you been!" and hugged each other awkwardly.

This party got seriously huge and then the house we were in had to turn into a warehouse to accommodate us all. So I got separated from Pat and was walking around with my friend Shay (not from high school), and some guy came up to Shay to try and hit on her and said "Hey baby you look like you could be Miss America" and it was so stupid so we just walked away.

Then I started running into my teachers from high school. One of them wasn't actually my teacher IRL, he was just my friend's little brother who grew this sketchy thick, black beard. But then I started hear people talking about "Ohh Mr. ____ is here, he's over there"... this IRL was my favorite teacher ever that I haven't seen, IRL, in a long time. So in my dream at this party I was so excited to find him, and my heart stopped beating and everything got really quiet, and then we found him, and he was really excited to see me too, and we hugged each other and it was the best hug ever... I don't even think I can explain it. It was amazing. I had really missed him.

Then while I was talking to this teacher, I saw Pat from a distance and called over to him so he could meet my teacher. Then when they met each other, Pat was like way shorter than him for some reason even though Pat IRL is way taller. Then my teacher started doing all these tests to him like bending his arm in weird ways and like pushing him to the ground. After the tests were over I said bye to my teacher, and Pat said "I know you missed him a lot, but I know that you really love me. So I am going to buy you a carpet."

Then the warehouse turned into Urban Outfitters, and they had all these SPECIAL INAUGURAL CARPETS FOR OBAMA that were just like stupid, stupid carpets with bad screen prints of boars and mice and weird shit on them. But they were only $9 so I considered buying one.

Then my alarm went off, but it was okay because obviously my dream was starting to get a little stupid.

I hate alarm clocks

This morning I was having such a nice dream. I was standing with my friend Josh who passed away a few years ago.

I was getting ready to go on a hike with this kid I know who is really intense about hiking, and it was a 6.3 mile hike and I was really nervous because I wasn't sure if I would be able to do it. But then Josh showed up to join us on the hike and he had this big afro and was wearing a bandanna, and we put our hands up like we were going to high five, and then linked them together and waved them around in the air. And I was just thinking, man oh man, it is so nice to see you! I am so excited for this hike, and to spend time with you. I wasn't nervous about the hike anymore. And we started talking about Big Brother, the reality TV show. And we were talking and holding hands, and it was so great, and the forest we were in was so pretty, there were really tall trees and it was really green. And my other friend was hanging ropes from the trees because we needed them to hike for some reason. But it didn't even matter because I was just hanging out with my friend Josh. Then an alarm clock went off and woke me up, and my dream was over. I was so bummed. I really was sad.

ribbon dream

Trying to write this before I forget. There was a cat... I was taking care of a cat. There was also an older bald man who wouldn't let me do anything. One of my friends wanted to turn into a bird really, really badly, but he wasn't allowed too... but then he died (but it wasn't sad), and he was wrapped up in ribbon and he looked like a spear, but there were 2 of them. Spears with ribbons wrapped almost all around them. Then the bald man and his mean wife tried to throw them out the window but then the ribbons unwound a little bit and turned into wings! And they could fly. It was so nice. And when I told the rest of my friends that he had died it was okay.

hallucination station

Yesterday when I got out of work (1pm) I was so exhausted. But I still stayed up for about 2 more hours. Around 3:30 I decided to take a nap.

I don't know why but I fell into an insane sleep. I'm not sure if it was a "deep sleep" because I was dreaming so insanely. But I kept kind of waking up, or thinking I was waking up, and thinking that it was summertime, or thinking that somebody was breaking into my room, or thinking I was in a field, who even knows.

fish dream

Last night I had a dream that was about a lot of things that are fading from my memory, but one part I remember was about my fish.

My two beta fish were sitting on the dining room table of my dads house. They were happy and healthy but I didn't have anything to feed them, and I was thinking about feeding them Parmesan cheese because that is small and flaky like fish-food, but then I realized that it would probably kill them. Then, the fish from the brooklyn aquarium with the messed up eye came into the dining room but it was flying, like it was swimming through the air, but then it was just still in the air. It's eye was messed up like it was really puffy and white around the edge,

(that is a picture of it, from in real life, compared to what normal fish look like)
anyways, it was just floating in the air for a little while, and then it fell to the ground and flopped around and then I knew that it was dead. Then I feel like I went somewhere into the universe but I can't really remember this dream that well.