my stomach hurts so bad

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

It's 4am. I am awake. I feel like I need to throw up but it isn't happening (which is pretty much one of the worst things ever). I can either crouch over the toilet, a miserable place, or sit on the couch and update this blog. I'm choosing the latter because I'm sick of holding my hair back for no reason. I don't know why this is going on inside my belly. It feels like there is a gremlin inside of me tearing at my organs.

When I was trying to fall asleep I think I was thinking about casting for films, seeing as that has been my life the past week. But since I've had "Skin" by R. Kelly stuck in my head all day, I just had this image of a really pretty black girl in my head. Like she was the girl I needed to find. It doesn't make any sense. In that song R. Kelly is talk-singing about how pretty and nice this one girl's skin is. I think darker skin is really the most beautiful which is why I think I pictured a black girl.

I feel like I will never get on a normal schedule. Plus I feel like I will probably skip my morning classes tomorrow and I have already missed the 10am once twice. I just wish I could not have my stomach hurt so often, and just go to my classes without this much trouble!!!!!

I'm ready for this semester to be over